1. |
Eternity Together
04:10
|
|||
|
I only seek eternity
I only ask for one more chance
To have a shining light within
To rest in your hands
Forgive all my mistakes
I saw it all begin
Although my heart aches
I have seen you win
And you'll never know how much it meant to me
And you'll never know how much I cannot be you
Together we are free
I only think of you
I long for the ability
To do what you do
I come to save you
I'm there to guide you
We are together through it all
Memories aren't regrets
I know my purpose
And I will stand tall
Together we are free
You know not what you do
I will always be there
Right beside you
I come to save you
I'm there to guide you
We are together through it all
Memories aren't regrets
I know my purpose
And I will stand tall
Together we are free
I only think of you
I long for the ability
Invested in you
Together we are free
You know not what you do
I will always be there
Right beside you
|
||||
2. |
Fragile
03:50
|
|||
|
I lay the cards before me
Only shadows in my sight
The ones who came before me
They were always blazing bright
I am now cast in darkness
How does one help oneself
When you've helped only others
I have only betrayed myself
And all I thought I wanted
Is like a curse upon me now
I'll be forever haunted
Unless I break away somehow
If I could be completed...
I would rise above the universe
And we would never need to be apart
But I have fallen even as I strive to climb
As I strangle my own fragile heart
Lying here, I languish
As violet kisses grace my lips
Sunk deep in candlelight
Water rising up from the abyss
Breathless, enchanted
I relinquish all my hope
Unto the promise
I will be meted out a longer rope
To hang myself with
As my words and actions crowd and jeer
The long-legged ones reproach me
Will I ever find relief?
No weary travelers approach me
And I deny belief
And all I thought I wanted
Is like a curse upon me now
I'll be forever haunted
Unless I break away somehow
If I could be completed...
I would rise above the universe
And we would never need to be apart
But I have fallen even as I strive to climb
As I strangle my own fragile heart
|
||||
3. |
Wide Open Eyes
04:03
|
|||
|
I will suffer in vain.
It was not of my choice
to be always in pain,
to have a dwindling voice.
No matter how I try
There is never relief.
No matter how I strive
I only bring about grief.
All matters, whether obscene or profound,
have the same source, the same rivers which carry them down.
Even heroes find drawbacks and poor recognition,
but still I would be one if I had as much volition.
For I want to be good and I want to be right
but mine eyes see the shadows that escape heavy night.
I see birth, I see growth, and I see the decay
of all "is" and "is not" and all "may be one day".
For the shining glass towers that rise to the skies
cannot separate my sight from my mind.
|
||||
4. |
||||
|
Incense burning to death,
Eleven candles casting light
Upon skulls this room adorning
Within this bruised midnight.
Faust himself would envy me
Drenched in power and in song.
Nightly my heart stops beating
So it looks further on.
Dim all the lamps upon me
And turn my heart to dust.
A terror descends upon me
To turn my blood to rust.
Flowers dead, petals withered,
Now grace my empty view,
While the moonlight slithers
Into memories of you.
In another world from this
Could I have been better?
If I could trust or love,
Maybe I could weather the storm.
Dim all the lamps upon me
And turn my heart to dust.
A terror descends upon me
To turn my blood to rust.
To the furthest bounds of existence,
Let me learn all there is to know.
Never normal, always ocean-bound.
Spread my ashes among the stars.
Scatter me to the end of the world.
And if I can't change the world I must be great!...
Yet all I do changes ev'rything.
I could never learn to be content here.
I must expand reality.
Part of me wants to be worshipped.
Part of me wants to destroy.
Even if I should choose neither,
Reality is my toy.
But I'll lock myself away
Until I can have my revenge.
Small things turn unimaginable.
Profound things will tear you apart.
I'll never become whole
Thrust upon me
I'll never become whole
Brought within me
I'll never become whole
There within me
I'll never become whole
From within me
Dim all the lamps upon me
And turn my heart to dust.
A terror descends upon me
To turn my blood to rust.
And yet, past all the suffering,
I would undo it all -
If I could just surpass myself
Before the autumn leaves of my life start to fall.
|
||||
5. |
||||
|
I only seek eternity
I only ask for one last chance
To save the dying light within
To rest in your hands
I've made so many mistakes
I can't help but relive
And as my heart aches
I know you won't forgive
And you'll never know how much it meant to me
But now you know how much I cannot be you
Hurts to wake from dreaming
When will I be free?
If I should fall
It will only be
Always your fault
When will I be free?
If I should fall
It will only be
Forever my fault
|
||||
6. |
Intermission
04:01
|
|||
|
Last night, I went outside. The sky was black. There were no stars.
Tonight, I sit with the lights all on. Two bulbs have blown. The dark swirls outside. Three. Four.
Relentlessly searching for some bastion of solidarity,
Enantiomorphous towers cling to rocky cliffs above a churning sea.
Though I'd brave Charybdis to discern the treasures ensconced within,
The pure alone may enter; I am grey, I falsify my grin.
I see everything dead or dying,
And this is how it all should be.
I see everything fallen, fading,
And this is how soon all will be.
I see everything dead or dying,
And all of it frightens me.
When I was a little child, I switched on the tv and saw a documentary on dissection.
From that day forth, my fingers itched and I quivered at the thought of taking up a scalpel in my hands.
One day I was all alone with the sharpest knife I could find.
I cut out my own heart and replaced it with a blaze of fire,
and I screamed for the very last time.
|
||||
7. |
Foxes and Rabbits
03:43
|
|||
|
Winter aches and pulls me down
Bitterness by candle light
As the quiet foxes walk by
Never making a sound
I can hear a rabbit scream
Speaking to my soul
Every second that passes
I feel myself becoming old
When will all the symbols consolidate
Into something I can see
When this poison devours my heart
Will the shell that's left still be me?
I am nothing, without you
Nothing I have always been
I know I'll find a way without you
Before the end comes to take me
One day, Death himself will come to carry me away
He knows all the millions I have slain
And yet he'll take me in his arms
And never let me go
That's more than I could have hoped for from you
So let the snow come down
And bury my sins
All I have ever found
Is that I'll never win
|
||||
8. |
My Only Prison
02:45
|
|||
|
Here I am, half a stranger to myself
Could I turn back and become kind?
...Kindness is for fools, I've always thought,
Now I'm loved less than an orange rind
And I'll even cast that away
And I'll say it's meaningless
I can't rely on anyone
And no one has my trust.
Yet as the light of dawn breaks upon my cell
My only prison is my hateful heart.
No do-gooders, no wishers-well
Would even start to approach me.
So I'll reject loneliness
And embrace solitude
That ghost which haunted my entire life
Without which there would never have been strife
And I'll never need anyone again.
And I'll never need anyone again.
No flame will ever devour me.
No light will ever console me.
No one will ever embrace me.
...And it's... fine. It's fine.
|
||||
9. |
This World Is Lovely
06:08
|
|||
|
This world is lovely, my darling, no matter what you'd say.
I know you can't talk now; I know it's never too late.
You sit, be soft, be still as splintered wood,
forgetting all you think you should know.
This world is lovely, my darling, and I know that it's mine
to see, to endure, to engage, to hide from.
For there are stalkers in the shadows, and they'll swallow inch by inch
the wicked who aren't wary and do not protect their sins.
I know you were a martyr, I a killer, I a thief.
I will honor all your glory as long as I cannot weep.
There are men, and then enchanters; there are charlatans and gods.
I long to be the greatest; failing that, destroy them all.
It's nothing simple, nothing right that I desire to manifest
the fears that chain me and deceive me, the pleasure I can not repress
from the cruelty singing deep inside me against all my better judgement,
the tangled lines of hate and love that through my lifetime I've kept hidden.
Can I step back and become kind? Would it matter in the end?
These tortured lungs are barely breathing, these eyes see through the truest friends.
No matter how good the intention, all will crumble into dust.
This was not what I wanted most of all, but now I must.
|
||||
10. |
Save Me
04:45
|
|||
|
Oozing sores gather close along the flesh
Each step, each thought, takes me closer to the threshold
I fear to know just what lies there within
Yet to know, I will shed my skin
Can I be redeemed?
There's nothing left
Nothing was ever enough
For I am empty
Cold and afraid
Of the void
That's taken on my name
So please, if you still can save me
You'll never hear these words, but save me
Through the atrocities please save me
You'll never love me, but please save me
|
||||
11. |
The End
08:24
|
|||
|
The end is coming
And I will bring it on
There'll be no end to misery
Until my war is won
And then I'll never break free
And then I'll never see the light again
And if I could sacrifice
A single part of me
It'd be the part that tries to be
Good and right
If I could tear it out and feed it to the wolves
Would it eradicate all that could have been?
Then I could finally complete my fall
And I could prove that I'm the worst of all
Just like I always knew
Just like they always said
There's nothing there, there's nothing left
There's only sorrow and hate
Deep in my bones, deep in my flesh
My blood is running black
I was never good, not good enough,
Rejection made me wait
For the light I could never find
Because of my own lack
And if I could sacrifice
A single part of me
It'd be the part that tries to be
Good and right
If I could tear it out and feed it to the wolves
Would it eradicate all that could have been?
Then I could finally complete my fall
And I could prove that I'm the worst of all
Just like I always knew
Just like they always said
If I could try, if there was a chance
Would I take it?
A chance to be the dying side of me
Would I make it?
All I've never known, all I've ever dreamed
In a different life
Not cast out, not cast away
To only bitterness and strife
And if I could sacrifice
A single part of me
It'd be the part that tries to be
Good and right
If I could tear it out and feed it to the wolves
Would it eradicate all that could have been?
Then I could finally complete my fall
And I could prove that I'm the worst of all
Just like I always knew
Just like they always said
I have tried harder than anyone else
It doesn't matter in the end
I could help more than anyone else
It doesn't matter in the end
I am more forsaken than anyone else
It doesn't matter in the end
I won't rely upon anyone else
I will decide the end
And then I'll never break free
And then I'll never see the light again
And if I could sacrifice
A single part of me
It'd be the part that tries to be
Good and right
If I could tear it out and feed it to the wolves
Would it eradicate all that could have been?
Then I could finally complete my fall
And I could prove that I'm the worst of all
Just like I always knew
Just like they always said
|
||||
If you like Morcheime, you may also like:
Dance Of The Spheres
by Rainbow Generator
featured on Bandcamp Radio Mar 5, 2024
go to album
Patterned after the Doomsday Clock, each of the art pop songs on this comp come to a hard stop after 100 seconds.
go to album
The haunting music of Morita Vargas floats her heavily manipulated voice over hypnotic rhythms from the kalimba, the cajón, and more.
go to album
Harrowing meditations on loss and feminine madness by the Portland avant-garde duo.
go to album
In The Eyes of God
by August, Yours Truly
A haunting, beautiful, autobiographical record that uses samples of old gospel records to wrestle with faith and unbelief.
go to album
Armed To The Teeth L.M.O.M.M.
by Kill Alters
The New York noise band's latest lurches like a demented funhouse ride, its explosive peaks bursting out giddily and unexpectedly.
go to album
Demos PT. 1 AUG-SEPT. 2023 - Sometimes They Can't Stay (ideas you love)
by (Liv).e
featured on Bandcamp Radio Mar 26, 2024
go to album
